Today, I was getting into the shower, and turned on the Bluetooth speaker to continue a Michael Singer podcast that I was listening to on “Your Highest Intention: Self-Realization”. I stepped in front of the water when it was cold, turned the handle warmer, and jumped back a little (I am NOT a cold shower person) just as Michael spoke the words:

“Your intention was to not experience it, wasn’t it? Please listen to me, do you know that feels like? ‘I don’t want to experience it, ewww…ok? It’s disturbing, I don’t like it,’ and so therefore because you don’t want to experience it, you used your act of will to push it away. When you pushed it away, where do you think it went? If you push that stuff down there, it doesn’t dissipate! It doesn’t go away…”

This moment hit a little different…

My journey into energy work started with Reiki in 2018. I was taking concepts that I had read about over the years (albeit at more of a “piquing, but quiet, interest” back then, when there wasn’t really anyone around to talk to about it), such as chakras and channels, and beginning to open up further and dig into how that energy moves through the body; how it gets stuck in places, and what getting stuck in certain places may mean; how that blockage of energy corresponded with being out of alignment with one’s inner being.

With Reiki being “universal life force energy”, and how we often practice forms of connecting and grounding meditations - where you visualize pure energy coming from the cosmos/universe down through your crown chakra, continuing through all the chakras in your body, filling every cell, down through your feet and into the Earth, and then back up through to the Universe, thus an energetic line between the Universe and Earth through you that flows both ways - I was then fascinated when learning about my Human Design type of being a Pure Generator, how I am to have access to consistent Sacral life force energy that is generated within every moment, and how these two aspects mesh together. I’m also going to explore some of the real world shadows I’ve experienced, and how understanding this design helps in accepting those.

I look at it this way: The universal life force energy is the fuel for our body, and it flows through the energy centers of our body. Our body is the vehicle we have in this lifetime, and our inner being is the driver of the vehicle. The egoic conditioned human part of us is riding shotgun (in the front passenger seat for clarity) and is either co-creating with the inner being to drive us where we want to go, or jumps in with its conditioned input and takes us off-course, out of alignment. From that, the Sacral Generator is simply either connected to the inner being and all of the universal life force energy available to it, or it is not connected, living in the not-self, and becoming frustrated. Much like the analogy I’ve used before - the sun is just there, shining its rays of energy, and you either choose to stand in them and soak them in, or you don’t…

Two lines in A Course in Miracles - Chapter 10, Paragraph 14, lines 8 and 9:

“Time and eternity cannot both be real, because they contradict each other. If you will accept only what is timeless as real, you will begin to understand eternity and make it yours.”

These are lines that I only just recently read and highlighted, shared during a study session on Wednesday, and that once again came to mind just one day later.

Yesterday, I was having another spiritual conversation with my Mom, jumping into thoughts, feelings, emotions…her recollections of certain experiences with my late father…the journey in this life…when I was compelled to pull up her Gene Keys Hologenetic Profile to share with her the paragraphs that detail her Activation Sequence. Being that there is a deep and profound draw for myself to my own profile and the words written within, I wanted to share these with her. Rather than just printing it off and handing it to her, I asked her to listen as I read them each out loud. I tried not to have any expectations, but I was also hoping that she would connect with something that would validate her travelled path at this time. As I began reading, I saw her immediately feeling into the words…

Over the weekend, I was reading posts on a Gene Keys and Human Design group, and came across a specific post that initiated the same flow energy that brings these blogs together. I responded to the post, and in turn it was suggested that I take those words and give them a post of their own on the group. I did so, and it resonated with many people. I wanted to share those words here, and then connect them to aspects of Human Design called “Strategy” and “Authority” and weave how they relate to the shift that has happened to me in recent years organically…

Take what resonates and leave the rest.

This is a phrase often heard in spirituality teachings. Like many other sayings, it can be blown right past if not paid attention to. What does it really mean, and is it really applicable? I’ll explain, and yes…

Apples don’t fall far from the tree.

You’ve heard of this expression, no? It seems that more often than not, there is a negative connotation to this expression…one of when there is a perceived flaw, or bad behavior, or troubles, or lack of ambition and so on in children, they are deemed guilty by association to their parents or caregivers. While there is truth to a certain degree in this, there is an even deeper truth that lies within this expression, and it is one of hope and love…

This is a split in your energy, where you’re not currently in alignment with your inner being - that is to say that the ALL of you is not currently heading in the same direction. There will be a negative emotion inside you physically as a result of this deviation from your inner being. The negative emotion is the indication that you are thinking or feeling about something differently than how your inner being sees it. The sense of being “lost”, or “unhappy”, or “off”, is the check engine light coming on, letting your physical body know that there is something to pay attention to here that is important to YOU…because you have not headed where your inner being went.

This may then sound like your inner being takes precedence in your life, and is “more important” than your physical brain/body, from the notion that if you’re not following your inner being, you feel negatively in some form. In a sense, this is true. Your inner being is the unfiltered, unobstructed, pure positive light essence of you; the pure extension of Source, or a higher power, or God, or however you choose to see it. It is that which guides you in this physical life through your lessons and to your desires, as you create. It is your up-to-date life GPS, always on, ready to give directions. Because your inner being transcends the subconscious and unconscious - aspects of your human brain that can contain programming or experiences that drive your behaviors and decisions in a direction away from where you and your inner being truly desire to go together - it would make sense to want to rely on the guidance that the inner being provides…

As we know, we are conditioned by society when we come into this physical life, to live certain ways, eat certain things, follow certain traditions, believe in certain beliefs, and so on. In infancy and very early youth, we don’t give thought to it, we simply comply with implicit trust from anyone near that this “is how life is”, because it’s what we see, feel, hear, taste and touch around us. We have a sort of soul connection amnesia going on, and it is as if there’s a brain fog that prevents us from remembering who we really are. Eventually, little sections of that fog start to clear away, and this is when we start questioning aspects of our lives and how we are living them at the time. What causes the fog to start clearing away? This is a fun one for me to connect…

You’re driving in your car, heading home from an appointment at the doctor’s office. All the tasks and errands for the rest of the day are running through your mind. I got the appointment done. Check. Just need to feed and walk the dog, pay this bill, mail that letter, and prepare dinner. You arrive at your house, and as you’re pulling into your driveway, a sheer panic sets over you. I don’t remember the last few miles of driving home! Did I stop at red lights and stop signs? How the hell did I even get here?…

This blog turned out to be a deeply inspired poem that poured out of my soul. Enjoy.

Did I miss a stop
When arriving at this place?
Did I sign on the dotted line
Of a contract for a soul with the wrong face?

Born into a family of partying
Smoking, drinking, loud music galore
It was easy for me to sense the pain
In the windows to their souls and behind their heart’s door…

I went to a restaurant to pick up some food the other day. I arrived a little early, so I parked in a spot in the middle of the parking lot, preparing to leisurely browse through my phone to pass some time. However, right before my eyes made it to my phone, they locked on the pavement in front of me…

Music is sent from radio station transmitters, through the air in the form of radio waves, 24/7. Not a single one of our five basic human senses experience the presence of those waves to know the contents. However, a receiver accepts those waves and outputs the music through speakers, to which our hearing sense then experiences the music.

We live in a physical world where we have become accustomed to relying on these five basic senses to tell us what exists, and what is “real”. Music sent over radio waves is one example, of many, that shows that things exist beyond our five senses. You can’t “tell” in your daily life that the radio waves are there, with music as the payload, but they are. Even if you don’t “believe” they are there, they are. You could walk around with the hard belief that because you don’t see/hear/smell/taste/touch them, then they don’t exist...but they do…

Tell me if any of this sounds remotely familiar:

You were born into a family where the environment was one you simply did not resonate with. You felt like an alien on earth, like you didn’t come from here and you didn’t belong here, and it was unwelcoming and foreign. It was not loving, it was tough. It was not kind, it was jagged. It was not easy, it was survival. Your parents never had money, and you were always barely getting by. Your childhood was full of contrast, sprinkled with spices that tasted like what you imagined “love” might feel like. It was difficult to discern whether or not the love was real, because there were many instances where it was clear that love was absent…

What do I want to be when I grow up?

This is one of the most thought-provoking questions we will ever ask ourselves during our lifetime. We ask ourselves this question, because it is presented to us at an early age. We are prompted to figure out the course of our life, during a time where we have such limited experience of it. It is assumed that, if we start thinking about it early enough, we will be more prepared for making the best decision…

There are times in this physical life where forms of innocence are experienced. Most of those times can be linked back to some point in childhood. As we are born here, there is a purity in our essence, free from conditioning. We don’t know good from bad, right from wrong, or white from black. Everything just IS. Traumas and conditioning can happen pretty quickly, and often do, but there is a period of this blissful ignorance where we see things as they are, and have a blank canvas to paint on in our minds…even if we have yet to develop the ability to verbally articulate…

I am down in the rabbit hole of Tarot, reflecting on the cards in the Rider-Waite tarot deck. The Fool’s Journey, as told by the Major Arcana group of the deck, is compelling to the inner being when the story is being shown. As I was glancing over the second card in the Major Arcana, The Magician, I was drawn to the visual expression of the phrase that has been spoken several times recently: “As Above, So Below”. If you look at the card, The Magician has a hand holding a double-tipped wand that is raised up pointing to the sky, while the other hand has a finger that is pointing down…

We get caught up in the summer nights of our minds. We start playing tag with ego, and it seems to be fun. Eventually, we get tired and want to go home, and ego won’t let us. It wants to keep playing, and it will do anything to keep us there. It will tell us anything we want to hear to make us feel happy, safe, loved, protected, secure, confident and on and on. We listen, we calm down, we play again. After a long night, we are too exhausted to contend, and ego is at ease…so we get to go home just in time to pass out…

Everyone, even those who aren’t yet awakened, or not “spiritual” by their own accord, has felt the shift in energy that has happened due to the COVID-19 pandemic. The way it is felt by each of us is unique to our own perspective, and in turn, so are the responses and/or reactions. The extroverted ones may be having a difficult time adjusting, while introverted ones may be going about business as usual. What is a commonality, however, is that all humans across the globe are experiencing a shift in rules, behaviors, and ways of living…

“If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.”

This quote, often attributed to Nikola Tesla (I state it this way, because it is unverified, and supposedly said to Ralph Bergstresser in a private conversation in 1942), actually holds a lot of valid meaning…

There are so many fascinating works of architecture, art, technology, tools and more, on this Earth and throughout history. These mankind-made items came from thoughts and ideas, and through inspired focus and action, the energy aligned into physical manifestation. That sounds scientific, but it’s true. All that we see as physical objects is energy that took shape into something that mind, body and soul created…